The traveler finds herself on a misty, tree-lined path in unfamiliar
country. A cloak drapes her shoulders, clearly
indicating her royalty, but she knows she is in exile. Glancing behind her at all she is leaving,
all the familiar territory, the companions, the life she has made for herself,
she does not yet see the figure of new possibility sitting under a tree
alongside the dappled path.
When she turns, she will find Hecate rooted here at
this crossroads, holding an acorn that may be intended for her. Hecate says, “This is the seed of who you are
and must become. It will not grow unless
you plant it – and yourself – in place, in your place. You must be in that place and rise up rooted, as the poem says.” She must keep walking.
The path leads her to an ancient tower. Perhaps, like Rilke, she will circle it and
wonder if she is a storm, a falcon or a great song. Perhaps it will crumble, like the Tarot Tower
– a crashing down and crumbling of old forms.
All she can do in her unknowing is close her eyes and put her hand on
her heart. In her inner eye, she sees a
spirit of birds and fire, of vines and ferns, in the same posture. She knows that this spirit is to come into
her, or she to it. She has no idea what
this means. She would prefer water if it
were hers to choose an element. But fire
is given to her. Maybe it was foretold
in the time before her birth. She was,
after all, born in the fire sign of Aries, a spring baby. Her mother was always distressed by her fiery
nature and did all she could do to damp it down. Truly, as a child she strove for obedience, but
rebellion struggled with acquiescence within her. Perhaps the smoldering, barely lit but
persistent coals were just waiting to flare up, whenever she learned how to
handle them.
What she does know is that the hardships of life are greater
than just hers. They are also the
earth’s pains and suffering. Her grief is
personal and more than personal. Fire can
destroy; it can burn it all down, it can parch and crack the earth. Her tears might be the only water to nourish
what needs nourishing, and even they are hot.
Of course, fire can also bless - the warmth of the hearth,
the cheer of flickering candlelight, the beauty of blazing sunsets.
What, if anything, does it all mean, specifically, for her,
for healing?
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