It Begins with a Call - Part 6

Forms of the Dark Goddess

(A SoulCollage® Journey)

The woman is ill and grieving.  The evening is just settling in, bats rising in a cloud of blessing she does not see with her head bent and her eyes closed.  She imagines that the Dark Goddess in the form of Kali Ma is dancing on the back of her bowed head (more headache).  What does the goddess want?  Listen!  She is singing,

                        You will die!  You will die!

                        Sooner or later,

                        You will die!

The words are like honed knives carving her skin.  All she wants to do is cry, or sleep, or disappear.

When she finally does sleep, she visits the underworld.  Her ancestors stand at her back and Persephone is climbing out, leaving her to float or swim or fly through the jewel-tone layers. 

It isn’t as terrible here as she’d thought it would be.  In fact, it is beautiful and peaceful, a place of gestation and quiet.  It feels like going deep within.  She wishes Persephone were staying, but she supposes it must be springtime and therefore time for Persephone to ascend.

Something truly is gestating, but what?  

The goddess, some goddess or other, appears in a new form. Does She have snakes in Her hair?  Is She still the dark one?  She certainly appears brighter, and She comes bearing wheels, setting them spinning.  That has to be significant.

Then she remembers the dream of fixing the hub of the wheel and healing then radiating out through all the spokes.  Something at the very core needs repair.  It has thrown her into crisis, into physical illness, though she knows that at the root it is really a spiritual illness.  

She is growing old.  She has no time to waste.  But urgency is not appropriate.  She knows that, too.  Years ago a psychic had told her, "Follow passion, not urgency."  But the paradox leaves her at a loss.  

All the wheels are spinning and are full of light.

It Begins with a Call - Part 4

When Athena sprang from Zeus’s head, She emerged fully formed.  In stories, what is missing may be very important.  Often, in fairy tales, it is the feminine; there is no queen, or the queen has died. That tells you something right away.

Here is what isn’t spoken of in the context of Athena’s birth, at least not that I have found: Zeus’ head, splitting open to bear a wise, snake-handling warrior woman goddess, must have caused Him a colossal headache. 

            

 A woman in black sits between Zeus and his daughter Athena.  They are at Dodona, the place where, in ancient times, the rustling leaves of the sacred oak delivered oracles.  In my SoulCollage® card, the woman in black pushes her elbow firmly into the back of Zeus’ head.  (This is the beauty of SoulCollage® - often you don’t really see what you’ve made until afterwards.)

“Headache,” she wordlessly prods.  “More headache.” Endlessly.  She is untroubled.  She comes from the underworld.  

I cannot hear what the leaves speak, but there is a whispering in my ear.

           

Another dream comes.  In it, I cross a bridge over a raging river on my way to the basement workshop of an Asian man, a wood worker.  He speaks to a small group of us, saying that the river we crossed is magical; drinking its water would add five years to your life.  He steps on blocks of wood and leads us to another area in this large underground workshop.  This is the studio of a very old Chinese craftsman, dressed in ancient, stereotypical Chinese dress.  He has just had a grandchild born to him.  He shows us a small box that he has made.  It is open in the front, like a diorama, and has small pieces, perhaps chairs, inside.  He tells us he has named his piece The Gifts of Oya.

           

I know Oya is an African goddess, but I don’t remember anything about Her, so I look Her up.  She is the goddess of tempests and wind, the goddess of transformation, death and rebirth.  A dark sister to Persephone.  But why would a Chinese man honor an African goddess?

I come to understand that the underworld is more than the land of the dead; it is the realm of the ancestral.  I intuit that I am to look to the ancestral, but not only the ancestors of my family.  There may be a council of ancestors who come from many cultures, some of whom are not even human.  This council may include trees, rocks, water. 

           

Did I think I was out of the underworld?  That was premature, wishful thinking.  The light is diffuse here.  I must be wandering around in the underworld still.

I have no question for the teacher, though I wish I did.  I want to ask something, but I don’t know what.  She says to me, “I know what your question is.” 

           

“What is it?” I ask.

           

“How do you bring your work into the dark?”