Monday, February 13, 2017


The sapling sprouts
on a slope
above a large rock.
As it grows, very slowly,
over years and decades,
it sinks roots down,
over and around the
cold, gray stone.
Some take the easiest path,
plunging straight down into
the topsoil.
Others must stretch
around the rock’s sides or
up and over the top,
tasting the naked air,
seeking, seeking,
the earth’s hold.
At last,
even these 
find purchase.
The stone is now
by roots.

Rather than blocking
the tree’s path,
rather than causing
the rock becomes part
of the tree’s character.
The obstacle
is now intrinsic
to the nature of
the tree.
Distinct and original,
the tree survives,
holding the rock in
its radical embrace.

One of my SoulCollage® cards.  It inspired this poem and some thoughts about dealing with obstacles.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

We Need Each Other Now

Preparing for tonight's salon, I can't help but notice that most of the poems moving me right now are deep and dark.  I've been wandering around an area of the underworld that I've been calling the doldrums.  Well, it is the dark of the year, Mercury is still retrograde, and the times are pretty tough, and like everyone else, I have my own peculiar set of trials.

We were surprised by how quickly the salon RSVPs poured in.  It's unusual for us to have a waiting list.  Of course, there are all the last minute cancellations, and the forecasted storm will have an impact on the turnout, but the feeling we've gotten is that people are truly hungry now for community and for things that will nourish the soul.  I'm hoping for that kind of evening.

A little poem came to me this week that I plan to share tonight, along with a small ritual of passing around and lighting a candle.  For anyone who can't be with us, here it is:

We need each other now.
In truth, we always have.
But as things disintegrate,
as chaos and disorder reign,
we become like bones,
scattered and
stripped clean of all
that is inessential,
Let’s reassemble ourselves,
the way Isis did with Osiris,
or La Loba with her wolf bones.
Let’s find a new configuration,
this part mine, that part yours –
Perhaps something original
will emerge, or
something ancient.
Let’s light a candle now, friends,
so we can see how

to begin.

Yesterday, while getting dressed after my swim at the YMCA, I noticed an older (yeah, older than me) African-American woman, the only other woman in that area of the locker room.  She looked at me and wished me a happy new year.  Of course, I wished her the same, and said, "Let's hope it's a happy new year." She responded, "We have to make it one."

So, here we go.  Let's make it one.

Saturday, October 29, 2016

Finally, the Water

Here is what it comes down to –
None of it makes sense.
None of it.
Why do we try, then,
to figure it out?
It is hard
to sit confounded,
to realize
that it is all Mystery.

It isn’t that Mystery is present.
It is all Mystery -   
These trees,
this water,
the rocks,
the complicated patterns
of nature.
our relationships, 
the children.
This ache,
that sorrow,
this vivid green watercress arising
out of the urban creek bed,
and the creek that is flowing,
even in October after four years
of California drought.

shrug your shoulders,
shake your mystified head,
and love the trees,
love the water.
Bless it. 
All of it.
Even the aches
and sorrows.

Mystery is whole,
and it is holy,
and so, therefore,
are we,
the hole next to the tree roots,
the tree roots,
the rock they climb over,
the ivy twining around them
down to the creek,
the bird call,
the traffic sounds,
the smell of rot and dampness.

I am here,
by the water.
And yes, I want
to soothe my soul,
and yes, I am selfish
and want the pain gone.
And yes, also,
I sit here, Mystery.
I sit here.

The squirrel skittering up the tree
makes me lift my head.
I glimpse the magic of
the changing sky.
Words are charms, as well.
I ride them out.

Friday, October 7, 2016

Birth Pains

As if there aren’t enough goddesses at work in my psyche, now I’ve been given Athena.  I accept.  Persephone, Demeter, Hecate, Hestia, and now Athena.  (Oh, and some conversations with Kali, too, but that’s another pantheon.)

I’ve been wanting to write about my experiences the last 3 months since attending the intensive, but it’s been difficult because everything has felt so unresolved, so unclear. Much of it may always be a mystery, but I have come to understand certain things about it.  It may take several blogs, and I may not be as linear or logical as usual.  Maybe that's a good thing!

To make a long story short, after being in the crucible of the intensive (with fires also burning all around Topanga and nearby), I felt myself seized by a headache in the back of my head.  But I’ve grown convinced that it is really a spiritual illness with physical manifestations. I have to treat it accordingly (but be assured I’ve used the allopathic system as well as lots of all kinds of alternative treatments).  

Yesterday, I had a conversation with Deena.  She says something is about to be born.  Like Zeus before Athena sprang from his head, I, too,  have an aching head.

Deena spoke of a statue of Athena at the Parthenon Museum, and I remembered it immediately.  It’s one of the few images of Athena that I love.  As Deena said, Athena is a warrior, but also very feminine, and accompanied by snakes (which many goddesses are).  She is the goddess of the mind, and I’m ready for a new belief system (or an old one, really) to take hold.

If you read my blog in early June, you might remember this image:

That’s where this poem begins (and where I am now):

Birth Pains

there was an image,
a box of mystery,
required and sought –
held in Persephone’s hands -
claimed at the behest
of greater forces -
opened to reveal
ghosts and fear,
shame and diverted anger.

Resisting that which you pursued,
you turned your head
to one side and
threw your arms up
to shield your face.
They formed an X, a cross,
to ward off pain and suffering,
to stop the necessary change
that must follow.

After the image
came the dream:
Fix the hub and all healing
will radiate through the spokes
to every part of the wheel.

Spirit has seized you
like a mama cat
snatching up her kitten
by the nape of its neck.

Here - She says –
Look here –
where you have shoved me  
to the back of your mind.
Your dream spoke true -

I am the hub of the wheel,

Not you.
That was no more than
a false belief.
You were never alone.
You were never in charge.
No wonder you cannot trust.
You chose to believe a lie.
I will hold you here
until you relax into
the embrace of truth
and realize that
what you asked for so fervently
you had all along.

I will not, cannot, abandon you.
Fear will not abandon you, either.
It is my messenger,
informing you to open your eyes,
open your heart,
It no longer needs to run your life.

Shame?  Let it go.
You don’t need it any more.
Keep it.
Use it righteously.

This may be unexpected.
Wake up.
The box is open,
and everything
is now released.

Zeus had a headache, too.
And Athena was born.