I was just sitting on my couch talking on the phone to a friend when I noticed a hawk was sitting on the roof of the cottage. It was a good-sized one, too. That kind of thing doesn’t happen very often around here. Maybe it’s an omen!
This morning Barry brought in my SoulCollage® stuff (stored in the shed, of course, since our house is staged and stripped down) so I could make a card to celebrate an important someone in my life. After I put that one together, I figured while I’ve got materials out, why not make another card? Usually, it’s so much more fun to make cards in a group, but I’ve also made quite a few on my own. What I love about the process is that it accesses something other than your conscious mind. In other words, often you don’t know what you’ve created until after the card is complete. I didn’t have an idea in mind – I just let myself to be drawn to the images.
Here is a photo of the card I made today, and this is what it says to me:
I am one who is in a fierce dance with the unknown. I am caught in a wild wind, blown about until I am confused about where I am or where I should be. I cannot even tell what is real and what isn’t. I would love to be able to sort things out, to see the pattern, to understand where I am and what I need to do. But…. I don’t know, and I don’t know who does. I don’t know! I don’t know! That is my mantra right now. I don’t know. Do you know? Who knows?
Today, for some reason, I’m not depressed about this. It sounds depressing to me when I read it, but I’m okay – for now – in my not knowing.
I am figuring out how to dance this fierce dance, even if it’s while sitting in my chair.